When Your Mind Takes Over

Your thoughts can take a toll on how you feel at any given time. You could be in the best mood because you got and A on a test then see someone who brings back old memories that tears you apart. Next thing you know you have tears and your eyes because of a single memory. Thoughts in general can all change your mood and sometimes it's hard to get them out of your head. As if all they want to do are tear you apart and the harder you try to hold yourself together the worse they get. But just as it's hard to push the thoughts away it's not as hard to turn them into positives. Those old memories were once good memories so instead of focusing on missing them turn it into remembering the great time you once had and think about how you can't wait to create new ones with someone else. If it's a bad memory be glad that it's over and that you are where you are now because of it, whether it be out of spite or because you moved on you got passed and there is no need to relive it. It is very hard to be positive sometimes but there is usually a way and when there isn't find someone to have by your side to cheer you up because I guarantee there's someone out there who's in just as much pain if not more pain than you and they want nothing more than to keep you from feeling the pain they feel. Whether you know they're in pain or not.

Lost in Thought

“You are your own worst enemy. If you can learn to stop expecting impossible perfection, in yourself and others, you may find the happiness that has always eluded you.” -Lisa Kleypas 

I think that in our minds we have an ideal as to how we wish life to be and when things go wrong it hurts us. I also think that we are not the only people who affect ourselves negatively. What society puts into our heads affects how we see ourselves and that because of that we can be negatively affected by our own thoughts. It's weird to think that having an average life can be so degrading and hard. I believe that it is only really that bad when you over analyze everything to the slightest detail as well. I noticed that everything him and everyone else did distressed him in the video and that there is obviously more than one way to see that situation. Either you can see the light or the dark of it. This got me to think about whether or not I try to see the light in things and for the most part I think I do but I do recall times where I was particularly angry and I couldn't see light in almost anything. I think that the biggest thing I would like to take out of his video is to try and always look for the upside in different situations and I think that will in turn lighten my mood when I am not having the best day.

Honesty

Relationships don't work without truth and all you did was lie to me to give you the upper hand. All that ever came from it was pain even though you may have just been trying to make me feel better but it doesn't work. No matter what the reasoning was for your lies in the end they came forth and left it worse than it would have been to just tell me the truth from the start. Instead of playing me like a instrument you could have stopped things from the start and not let them escalate further then hello and goodbye yet you let it turn into I love you and I hate you. Lies tear relationships apart no matter how big or how small. If it weren't for the white lies and the complete stories with little to no truth maybe things could have gone better. But because of how everything you said to me that was different from what you went around telling everyone else, no matter which was truth it tore this relationship apart. Without honesty relationships don't work even if you think it's for the best.

Relationships

When I think of a relationship my mind doesn't immediately switch to romance, first I stumble over the relationships people have with family, then friends, and somewhere along the road romance takes it's toll. When I was little I never understood romance as I suppose not many kids do but even growing up I never understood the point. The only romantic relationship I could comprehend was my parents and after their divorce I never understood the point because I figured no one stayed together. Though, after I got a little older and became more in tune with other relationships of the people around me and I began to understand a little more. One thing that stands out to me when seeing all these people in different kinds of relationships are the things that really matter to people. I will never understand the people, such a Petruchio, that only care about the things they will get out of it and not about the person themselves. I believe that anyone who wished to be in a romantic relationship should be in it for the "right" reasons and I do understand those may differ between people. That being said, I think that if more people thought of relationships in the same way more people would be happy and stay together.

Back to the Routine

Having a break was a really nice break from waking up everyday at the same time doing the same thing every morning and night. Over break I got really used to being on my own schedule excluding the proximity of practices for volleyball and workouts every so often but still more relaxing than the same thing over and over every day. I liked being able to sleep in past 7am and not having to stress about what homework I had due the next day, not to say I don't adore homework, but a little break can be nice here and there. After the long break getting back into the day to day routine was difficult because of how used to having my own schedule was nice. Though Tuesday morning was the most difficult because waking up early after being able to sleep in for so long was hard to find the motivation to pull myself from my bed. As well as Tuesday night having to get homework done for the first time since break. All in all getting back to the routine is tough after a long break like that.

Yin & Yang

One of my favorite current T.V. shows is called Vampire Diaries. It's about, somewhat obviously, vampires though along with that come supernatural people and things such as witches and ware wolves and people called travelers. All of these people have different strengths and weaknesses with both positively and negatively affect these creatures. For instance vampires are extremely fast and strong but they cannot stand vervain. If they come into contact with it, it burns them. Another thing they are extremely sensitive to is the sun, therefor unless they have something to protect them they cannot be in the sun. This brings me to the concept of balance, you need balance in life and in this show I have learned much about why without balance things wouldn't be good. Sure the idea of vampires and witches and all of those things is a very "out there" example but it agrees with my point. Without balance things don’t work out and this is a perfect example of that.

Stress

Before high school stress was never really a huge portion of my life. Sure there were stressful moments but it never caught up to me it would just come and go. Being in high school now it has really picked up. Due to all the increase in homework and in difficulty, the uplift in intensity not necessarily in school but extracurriculars, in particular sports, everything has really just gone up. Obviously everyone has there moments of really stressful times but I think the best way to go about it is to try to limit it. Allow yourself to do things in order to limit the amount of stress you are put under. For me one of the major stressful moments this year for me was right before volleyball tryouts for club volleyball. I really wanted to make a certain team and had to work very hard to do so, so up until that time I was extremely stressed out. Couldn't sleep, couldn't focus, all of the symptoms of stress hit me, hard. All I could do was focus on the tryout itself, so in order to manage it I put more work into achieving my goal and that allowed me to stress less because when it came down to it, I was more prepared. Maybe you can't relate with a sport but maybe a test. Have you ever gone into a test and thought to yourself, "Wow, I really am not prepared at all and so not think I am going to do well."? Or on the other hand gone into a test thinking, "I am so ready to rock this test!"? You were probably more stressed about not being ready, that's how it was for me. For me, the biggest reason for stress is being unprepared, therefore in order to be less stressed I try to stay on top of my work and always be prepared.