Stress

Before high school stress was never really a huge portion of my life. Sure there were stressful moments but it never caught up to me it would just come and go. Being in high school now it has really picked up. Due to all the increase in homework and in difficulty, the uplift in intensity not necessarily in school but extracurriculars, in particular sports, everything has really just gone up. Obviously everyone has there moments of really stressful times but I think the best way to go about it is to try to limit it. Allow yourself to do things in order to limit the amount of stress you are put under. For me one of the major stressful moments this year for me was right before volleyball tryouts for club volleyball. I really wanted to make a certain team and had to work very hard to do so, so up until that time I was extremely stressed out. Couldn't sleep, couldn't focus, all of the symptoms of stress hit me, hard. All I could do was focus on the tryout itself, so in order to manage it I put more work into achieving my goal and that allowed me to stress less because when it came down to it, I was more prepared. Maybe you can't relate with a sport but maybe a test. Have you ever gone into a test and thought to yourself, "Wow, I really am not prepared at all and so not think I am going to do well."? Or on the other hand gone into a test thinking, "I am so ready to rock this test!"? You were probably more stressed about not being ready, that's how it was for me. For me, the biggest reason for stress is being unprepared, therefore in order to be less stressed I try to stay on top of my work and always be prepared.

Pieces

Day by day my mind stays on you,

I can't seem to pull away.

Everything that comes and goes,

it brings me back to you.

All I can think about is what was,

and now what I wish still could be,

but it cant, because it's over.

It's all slipped from my reach.

The further you got away,

the more you ripped me apart.

With nothing to fill the spaces,

I'm left in pieces.

Yet no one can fix what you've done,

nothing can put me back together.

Only you could glue me back,

back to the way things were.

Yet you won't because you can't seem to see,

all the darkness around me now.

Because of you I’ve fallen for good,

and without you,

being put back together,

 is out of the question.

Change

The way things change so rapidly is scary to me, one second things are one way and the next they're another. It's as if a switch has been flipped changing everything around and creating new obstacles to jump over. as if it wasn't hard enough as it is. I feel as though things change the minute we begin to adapt to the way they are. I haven't been able to keep my mind off how different everything is this year in comparison to the last. It's crazy to think about how much has changed in a year and even some things quicker than that.

A Letter to my Parents

To my Mom and my Dad,

Thank you for always having back no matter how out of line I am you never stop loving me and I don't know what I would do without you in my life. I don't always say it but I love you both so much and definitely don't give you enough credit for all you do for me. I'd be lost without you two and would not be the person I am today. I have you to thank for allowing me to grow up and I could not be more thankful for you. Thank you for being the best parents!

Love, 

your daughter