Honesty

Relationships don't work without truth and all you did was lie to me to give you the upper hand. All that ever came from it was pain even though you may have just been trying to make me feel better but it doesn't work. No matter what the reasoning was for your lies in the end they came forth and left it worse than it would have been to just tell me the truth from the start. Instead of playing me like a instrument you could have stopped things from the start and not let them escalate further then hello and goodbye yet you let it turn into I love you and I hate you. Lies tear relationships apart no matter how big or how small. If it weren't for the white lies and the complete stories with little to no truth maybe things could have gone better. But because of how everything you said to me that was different from what you went around telling everyone else, no matter which was truth it tore this relationship apart. Without honesty relationships don't work even if you think it's for the best.

Relationships

When I think of a relationship my mind doesn't immediately switch to romance, first I stumble over the relationships people have with family, then friends, and somewhere along the road romance takes it's toll. When I was little I never understood romance as I suppose not many kids do but even growing up I never understood the point. The only romantic relationship I could comprehend was my parents and after their divorce I never understood the point because I figured no one stayed together. Though, after I got a little older and became more in tune with other relationships of the people around me and I began to understand a little more. One thing that stands out to me when seeing all these people in different kinds of relationships are the things that really matter to people. I will never understand the people, such a Petruchio, that only care about the things they will get out of it and not about the person themselves. I believe that anyone who wished to be in a romantic relationship should be in it for the "right" reasons and I do understand those may differ between people. That being said, I think that if more people thought of relationships in the same way more people would be happy and stay together.

Back to the Routine

Having a break was a really nice break from waking up everyday at the same time doing the same thing every morning and night. Over break I got really used to being on my own schedule excluding the proximity of practices for volleyball and workouts every so often but still more relaxing than the same thing over and over every day. I liked being able to sleep in past 7am and not having to stress about what homework I had due the next day, not to say I don't adore homework, but a little break can be nice here and there. After the long break getting back into the day to day routine was difficult because of how used to having my own schedule was nice. Though Tuesday morning was the most difficult because waking up early after being able to sleep in for so long was hard to find the motivation to pull myself from my bed. As well as Tuesday night having to get homework done for the first time since break. All in all getting back to the routine is tough after a long break like that.